Thursday, April 8, 2010

Day 8, Poem 1 + Mea Culpa

I know I've been AWOL. Mea culpa, maxima mea culpa. It's two-a-day until the 16th for me.
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Sum over Histories, Part I

I
Pockets bursting
with trinkets
plucked from stoop
and curb

No troubadour
for the inanimate
but when I look
at crevice and armor chink
chipped paint
permanent smudge

I want the stories
for fingerprints and palm lines
for each moment
and not after

Resist
the catalogue
the dissection
genus and classification

otherwise it’s
twenty volumes of
hand pass
hand down
and map point

But reality is underrepresented

My vision clicks
to luminosity
to pin light
saturated and burned vivid

Save the breadcrumbs!
I don’t need
leading back

Today, reduction abets deduction
Rather, nurture image to birth projection

II
Listen:
there is a flea market
every summer Saturday
right off Dekalb

On its south side, half way back
bounded by chain link and tent posts
a merchant proffers pictures
whose stories exist in image alone
and beg conjecture for the text

Another hawks chain-mailed miniatures
hand painted with care;
in the sunset they reflect
the now nameless:
dust to dust is true reduction

Listen:
Time travels on four paths
the line is only imagined

Listen:
The line is a crutch
any path is imagined

This is the end
because it’s the beginning

This is the coin
This is the balance
This is the boundless expanse
This is the precipice:

To jump is to fall four ways

It’s the stranger at the corner table
she has a prophet’s look
she is red-eyed and tired
she is waiting

It’s the street man
he is wrapped in wool
he laps at wind gusts
he begs to be shot through with love

I will never see them again
I don’t need their government names
They are not linear but here and gone
They defy narrative

Her eyes
His cries

These are not prescriptions
These are more than legislation

They linger in the air
that tonight hangs low
spread heavy and
dripping oils
purple and orange
while only the clock
anticipates midnight’s
languid passage

Day 7, Poem 7: Untitled in-class Exercise OR
Ugh, I Cannot Believe Roger is Making Us Post These For Our Day 7's
(Um, fuck this, I'm only posting a part or it - and wtf is everyone else's??? Come on alkies!)

Panama, you dirty chicken hawk sonofabitch motherfucker! You taught me to search for that which I never wanted. Made me think I needed it to survive. You pierced my head, red with your child-size dick in my mouth and the smell of the butcher's - raw meat - and sunlight in my nose. And mildew - the stank smell of summer sex I didn't yet recognize as anything but-different.

Sawdust beneath my feet, soaking up rotten milk dropped by delivery men. I would have laughed at the ridiculousness of this place had I recognized it then - or been able to float outside my body and watch myself like I do now, but I don't. I'm still doe-eyed and obedient - I'm sure that's the main ingredient you look for in girls. And I do mean girls... Just an object. Easily replaced. Insignificant glory hole. Human urinal.

I think about you almost every day and sometimes every night whether I get to sleep or not. But you probably forgot- the minute you pulled out and looked both ways before making your getaway. Funny. My backbone broken-spirit ripped from chest- left to die in the festering sickness and blame that incubates in open wounds of misunderstanding. Spreading, infected.
Day 3, Poem 3: Excerpt from Untitled long ass poem about the 'Hood


Cruel intentions
on your timeline-
got you sidelined
'Cause none of this was scripted
Try to tell yourself they flipped it
But the truth is
It's nothing personal to them
Just business
You wouldn't wish this on your children
But some of them did
when we were coming up-
Urban innocents-dumb shits
Didn't see what they were making
Breakin' in the next generation
and had us emulating
Pill poppers, racist alcoholics and junkies
Training circus monkeys
But my mother didn't raise no flunkies
They fueled rage and bred hatred
propagating their mis-educations
and their wasted youth
But they got us too
'Cause when you don't go along
They just rape you
Take you every chance
they can and try to break you
shake you
'Cause when you don't play
you're a throw-away
An anomaly
if you don't buy into gangster neighborhood mythology
This one's pops-that one's uncle
they were killers
chopped off limbs
in the backs of vans and
tenement cellars
and now they're fillers
in the foundation
of the buildings
that house our generation
But the thugs got locked up
and fucked up the stations
Their kids come up tryna' cash in
on a way of life
a West Side story that had passed them
Still the mothers let the
romance of a novel with
the fathers' mugshots gas 'em.
Day 2, Poem 2 Untitled Ghazal attempt



Veins jumping, tendons stretching beneath

glistening sun-kissed hands, working hard



Tears, streaming down her porcelain cheeks,

salty puddles of regret at what she's lost,

gathering at her feet, crying hard



Brows furrowed, glass shatters, bodies shoved,

melee and adrenaline mix with alcohol and bravado. If

you come wit' it, son, you best come hard



Seconds race toward deadlines and sunlight annoys,

splayed across the blank page. Words whiz by rememberance,

teasing, telling you, "Damn, this test is hard."



Lips crash and burn. Eyes smolder and bellies turn. Neck

outstretched for kissing and hands searching warmth

fluttering. Not going where you wanted this to was hard.
Dad I think I have to tell you.
I like to sleep with strangers.
I like to get real stoned,
real drunk, press my face
against the window
and get fucked.
It doesn't mean I don't
stand up for what I believe in,
my pelvis spread wide
like Europe, sprawling,
my cunt red, chest satisfied.

I know
who I am.

I'm a cottage attic
filled with gold. My hands
go blue-gray cold. I'm New York
fucking state. I'm the river
and the slate.

It is important to be nice,
I recite, with silver
in my mouth, with stones,
with false starts,
the cum in my throat,
the guitar riff rumble.
In the front seat of a convertible,
we take our long hair down,
we talk about boyfriends, bitches, biology,
we talk about bike riding,
I feel it between my legs
like a lever
and push off.

I'm sorry to tell you this so abruptly
with my skin shining,
and my golden heart ticking,
but we will not lie anymore,
not with our mouths,
nor with our hands.

day 5 - shrine, day 6 - 16 bars

shrine
(for Doreen Ojurongbe)

Without something specific to call
you, I call you, mother – who looks
so much like my own, your images
stutter over each other like those who
have known you stutter when they meet
my mother. Mother, my grandmother
i have no way, no tradition by which
to speak with you. I have no history
that involves your hands on my feverish
head – or hot baked bread from your
ovens, or an old song, sung down
from your mother and hers. But i have
this – that you loved to dance,
that your limbs were gazelle and
leather; your spirit made of so much
dirt and leap – you were Africa before
you met your husband. You were always
going home.

Mother, my grandmother, I love the club;
the thump, thump of music coming
from speakers bigger than your whole
body. I love the rum. I love the way
I can anoint myself in it and become
one with all I believe and am blooded
by. You should see me leap and spin
in this. My steps are all pound and muscle
and swagger. You should have met me.
I’m a big, square boy, grandmother
and nothing cleanses me so like my body
stretching itself into kite and wing – nothing
prayers me so much as sweat, so much
as the dirt splashing into mud around
my feet. It has taken me much too long
to return to you. I offer you river and candle,
fruit and psalm – but because you did, because
my other, couldn’t – here is dance, dance, dance.
I love your feet. I have been too long waiting
to anoint them; to commit my own, to Africa
to dust.




16 bars of funk
(for Erica Hunt and Erica Miriam Fabri)

I’m gripping a notebook thick like leather,
pen-flipping a cold metaphoric trick
- no sweater – intellectual effects in form
rhyme poems. no mime poems. I stack tomes;
pantoum, villanelle, ghazal – drop dime on grime
poems. 16 bars put a dent right in ya – check
your whack rap – it gets hot in this rhyme room
who slit your neck, red blood slick, iambic
pentameter, language poetry trick, 2 poets
named Erica – bet ya dictionary set trip
when you check this, get help from your
thesaurus – read a book trick if you wanna get better